Saturday, October 16, 2010;
WHAT if ...i want to end my life but i don't really dare Life is just hard.I know noting comes easy but i'm so at lost of what to do. Life is full of regrets.
Actually come to think of it, there's nothing in my life that is worth living for except my dad. It's because i don't hv friends. My classmates don't really treat me as a classmate. i'm alone.i hate being alone. Alevels....i wish i could rewind time and study all over again
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Why do i feel depressed so often ? I am
Not sure of the reasons either. Could it be because my of classmates who I thought and may be uncaring towards my feelings in some aspects or is it my studies or because of peer pressure ? Oftenly sucidal thoughts raced through my mind , and I felt guilty . It is because I will think of my dad. He worked so hard just to provide for our family which consist of me , my dad and my brother. If I just died like that, he would be so depressed and it will be hard for him to get out of it . He was feeling terrible after my idiot mother left. I can't let it happen again . Another reason that could make me sad was my brother . I think he despise me for making him do all the housework . So often when People gets emotionly sad , people would normally cry out to their really good friends which probably is their best friend . As for me , I had no one to turn to . Some people are good friends to me , but not best friend who I can talk everything
Life is just hard ... I am left alone again
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SIANZ.....TOday...supposingly hv a match with RJC...but because of the stupid weather .!!!!!then it's rescheduled to next mon....MORe lesson being missed but i don't mind....That game will be damn exciting....i 'm like excited for them ..even though i canrt get to play!!we end up going hm....our supporters...CAME FOR NOTHING!!!sry ppl!!!....WE MUST WIN RJC!!!..FIGHT FIGHT@@@@@@@@@@@@@oh no!!!i got THREE test next week!!!!CHEM , MATHS, ECONS..>.<...WHAt to do!!!!??Labels: hmm...
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i canrt believe this!! i actually fall aslp when my coach is de briefing us for the match though i'm not playing !!I didn't do tt on purpose...as far as i can rmb, coach was telling us to imagine ourself playing ..so i close my eyes when i see everyone closes it...but the mintue i close it i don't recall a single thing...THe next moment i open my eyes...everyone already open....SIMPLY to say tt i fall ASLP!!!OH MY!!!!i'm so tired..sry ppl ..i didn't meant to fall aslp!!!
today is quite slack....i only had chem and pe before leaving for hockey competition AT Delta..
WE won ACJC!!!=]..we top our grp so we are playing against RJC this coming friday!!!!ahh...
TOday we had a score of 1-0!=D Even though i'm not a experience player...i can see that christie , nat and bala din't do very well...but i know they tried thier best...COAch say the defense today so super..!!!I THINK SO TOO!!!Sinyee managed to block the ball with a split!!!she's the goalkeeper and thanks to kendra...we did a amazing black today!!!!JIAYOUS!!
back to me!!!i'm worried for my GP and chi Common test !!!it's coming up pretty soon!!!2 weeks more>.<..
i feel so dead man!!the more urgent things is NEXTmon is CHEM TEST!!!and TUE is MAths test...ARGH!...Labels: Am i that tired???
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YEA!finally got time to blog!!!!
my life is sometimes a misery but of course i won't indulge in misery ..
what's the point?My mum really left..no matter what she's not coming back...
even though in reality she's my mum but in my heart she's not anymore!She can forsake the family just for her happiness..ain't tt a selfish act???Even in her shoes, i know tt this is so wrong...why canrt she be waken up from tt fragile world of hers!!!!everytime when i see ppl being with thier mum , i hv this undescribable feeling in me, it's heart wrenching to say anything about it!
hais...let's not talk about....
ANw...i LOVE MY CLASS!!!!
THere are 7 girls and the rest are guys...
GIRLS: Charmaine
FELicia
ALexandra
GRACE
Weiyun
RAchael
and Me..hurhurXD
GUYS!!:some are the fun , the peace , the laughter , and the joy!
ZHiyang(fuffy)sound nice,chuanyong,russell lim , russell boh, gabriel (gabriella)hurhurXD, andre, WAi leong(WAaaai Leoooong), samuel(SAM), Nicholas foo, nicholas, joel, CHetwin,Alvin(ROBERTO, MAK QI),shaun, JUN bing(JB), gerald
23PPL in total!!
tmr we hv a so called class outing...yipee!!!
anw...MOJO...and rest!!!i missed going out with you guys..!!!MISSED it terribly!!!!even though we are in the same school!!!!!>.<.....
OMg i being very random...whatever just come to my mind i'll just write...and this goess...OMG!!!!i have wasted another day today doing only very little things...oh CRAP!.....why does this always happen!!!!
okok gtg slp if not cannot wake up tmr....i hope today marks the new start of me please!!!!>.<...
blog another time....here's a place i can pour out all my sorrow , happiness and many other things...
Labels: MiSsed mixed feelings
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Saturday, February 07, 2009;
Hahas...it's been a week of busy days....
this whole week i'm hving orientation at saJC....
THe og i'm in was awesome!IT's OG3.The people are very nice and friendly except some ppl!hahas who kept suaning me!....i'm just kidding...Everyone is really nice to me!
On thursDAY , i made an impt decision in choosing my subject combination. I chose PCM as my H2 subject and econs as my H1.
THis week was really tiring but fun!
Ytd was the finale of the orientation ,i sang till crazy!
TOday is my birthDAY!...and i want to thank you those who wished me happy birthday!i'm really glad you guys did!LOVE YOU GUYS!
Brit kenneth and ck came my hse today, they passed me cake and a present.I think it's shared by brit kenneth and chicky and wuqi and cheng tuan!
IT 's a speaker!!!!THanks guys...at least is sth useful!
There's a note on the present! it roughly said that it's wuqi who remind brit tt today's my birthday ..SO here ..i REALLY want to thank you LIM WU QI!!!!...you will forever be my good friend even though we had quarrels!I really glad tt it was resloved!LOVE YA.!!!!
anw i hope i can get into a class which had most of my friend in it!!!Especially with MARk and WUQI!!!
This is my schedule for next two weeks lectures !On the right hand side is week 6 and on the left hand side is week 7!=]
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Saturday, January 31, 2009;
been BUsy ...
been tired!
ACtually wanted to post pictures..
but i'm not really into the mood...
My family!My MUM!left
Now tt she had left...my father had to hold up the family himself.
He has to pay all our insurance,our sch fees...and alsodo his job...
there's alot of complications which involves, making it diff to solve!
I'm really damn upset...
I've been posted to SAJC....
If i was to sit wuqi's parent's car...i will arrive in 20 mins ...
who drives from yew tee to potong pasir...using the PIE ROAD!
REgardless of whatever, i have to study hard and not let m DAD disappointed!!!
GAMBATEh!
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